Life and Poker

In Life and poker, you lose some hands, you win some! While at Poker you worry about how much you have won and when it’s about your Life, you cry for the ones you have lost.

When you are not at the poker table, dealing with the consequences of reality is sensible over deception. You may be good at it but you never know how good the other being is!

uncertainty prevails

until this time, I dreamed of this journey as exciting and adventurous. I wish it was more than just a mirage. As I walk ahead, even this mirage fades away. Lines on my palm become anxious, they refuse to fall in line...
one 'Gypsy' soul, that was free to wander at its whim; now lies on the hard & smoldering earth... fluttering and struggling for life. one 'Gypsy' soul that it was once...

Times go by...

I wish the time don’t go by,

I wish our ages don’t sore.

my world is better today,

I wonder if it will be as soothing tomorrow...

Today I don’t know what lavish is,

I might live extravagantly tomorrow.

but will remain lingering behind is the regret of leaving behind;

leaving behind my childhood,

leaving behind my immaturity,

leaving behind those days when my mother was the most influential woman in this world!

How easy were those thoughts, I don’t want to splinter them.

I don’t want to grow old,

I don’t want to lose a mother's love for her ten year old son.

The future is not gloomy or something,

In fact its showing potential.

But the things I have lost,

Those days of my innocence,

My nascent little world, which I knew till its boundaries,

Are worth a mention...

I Love Mountains!

While far below men crawl in clay and clod,
Sublimely I shall stand alone with God.

I looked ahead and saw the mountains there, with rocks and forests
on them, and from the mountains flashed all colours upward to the heavens.
Then I was standing on the highest mountain of them all, and round
about beneath me was the whole hoop of the world.
And while I stood there, I saw more than I can tell, and I understood
more than I saw; for I was seeing, in a sacred manner, the shapes
of all things in the spirit, and the shape of all shapes as they must
live together like one being. And I saw that the sacred hoop of my
people was one of many hoops that made one circle, wide as daylight
and as starlight, and in the centre grew one mighty flowering Tree to
shelter all the children of one mother and one father.
And I saw that it was holy.

To the mountains I say: "How fragrant are your odours,/ how delightful your perfume!/ Within you all is full of brightness!"

They reply, "The Being who passed through our midst/ has no tangibility or substance;/ No substance or tangibility has he,/ nor is there any kind of desire in him./ The Being who passed among us,/ released some of his vivifying power among us."

From: TOI, some 2yrs back...

Unknown/Almighty

My mother told me that the unknown has so much powers that it can move the world its way. But I don't see it! I suppose it indeed has such powers; therefore I fear, have faith in the unknown.

I acknowledge its legend; and I pretend to know the unknown. It's still unknown for me. As unknown as it was before! I can't appreciate it until I converse with it, until I connect with it.

I don’t know why...

I came here on this plateau some three years back along with a bunch of other people from different lands. Like all others I knew I had to move on sometime, and I was never bothered about that fact. I had the finest time of my journey here and now I realize, time has come for us to move on. Its not the first time but it has never been so difficult before.

Some of my allies have already left some are gathering there belongings around. I don't grieve for the place that I am about to leave. I grieve for the directions we are leaving, which are so different. I don't know if our paths will meet again. I just hope they do!

lately, I felt, I was a bit offhand, sluggish, thoughtless or something like that… I was unlike me… I desperately wish, we had just a few more days here and the future could have been more pleasant. Unfortunately I don't have the machine to go back in time but still I feel, I can shape the future our way. I know a king who told me once - if you want something, the entire universe conspires in helping you to achive it! -- and I am sure everyone must have heard this as well!

I shall miss my fellows… for some I know the reason why? For one I still don't know the reason why?

Manthan!

The other day, I was roaming around in search of some peace. Subsequently, I saw a mid-age lady coming towards me. I asked her, "Ma'am, where can I find some peace here?" and she said, "my dear, peace is right here, in your heart!". She continued, "If your heart is at peace, there is peace everywhere in this world!". That did not go down well with me. I kept walking. After some time I met a mid-age man, a businessman kind. I asked him, "Sir, Where can I find some peace here?". "Young man, its here. in your mind! realize it and you shall feel at peace even in the crowded train!". I was not quite convinced with it, but this activity was interesting for sure. I continued walking around to find more people and their versions. Little while later I met a priest. I asked him the same question. Where can I find peace? "Its In the church. My dear son, confess of all the sins you have done, and you shall be free of them. You can then feel the peace", he said. I resumed my search. Then, I met a Shepherd and upon asking the same question he replied, "Oh! Peace.. Its there in the mountains, on the other side of the river!". He continued, "I can take you there. I go there every week with my sheep"……

Peace is not what you think, because my perception of peace is different than yours. Peace is not what I think, because someone else's perception of peace differs from mine.

I wonder what exactly they do in the peace process? Is it convincing others of how my perception of peace is right or it is better than yours? or something of that kind...